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In A World, by Jerika Perthuis



What if we lived in a world where no one had to ask because it had already been given. No one would need a hand out or a hand up because we had all collectively chosen let go, refusing to anticipate getting or receiving, because this mentality goes against Who We Are. We facilitate growth, letting go of what was not ours in the first place, pushing forward an entity that could propel another into an entirely different universe. What if what’s mine is yours, and I see safety inside of you?  

Regardless of how beautiful any other religion is, regardless of how much we pretend and create stories over others, no matter any of our collective efforts to edge out our fellow man, in a world of difference, of superiority, the foundation of equity laid by the Son of Man is unquestionable. 

Over and over again, He extends the answer. To forgive, to love, to be the last in line. 

Even when we know it ourselves. And have the audacity to ask, once more, for clarification. 

What if we stopped creating stories over others to make ourselves feel better about how distant we are from a reality that allows even one toe dipped inside of a less desirable pool. 

 

Even one breath released in the same undesired conversation. 

When Jesus saw him lying there and knew that he had already been there a long time, he said to him “Do you want to be healed?” 

What if we all had some relative understanding that this man would of never been passed over. What if we know, that because of Who We Are, those long thirty eight years would of only been a microscopic length of seconds. 

What if we were all standing on the steps, hands forward, steadfast, pushing every single blind, lame, and paralyzed brother and sister as the most dearest, most loved, comrade. 

And as those five roofed colonnades loomed around us, we would gather strength from what we already knew as an unquestionable truth. The first will be last, and the last will be first.  Our only safety being rooted in Jesus commanding “See you are well! Sin no more, that nothing worse may happen to you.” 

 And we are well, collectively, resting in Him. For the Son of Man came to seek and save the lost.

 John 5:1-17 (ESV) Luke 19:10 (ESV)

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