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To See it Go, by Jerika Perthuis


Truth is always defined by the majority collective, when the said majority is composed of disjointed points, especially disjointed players, truth will always consist of pillars left up to interpretation. Truth is definable, as those who overtake those interpretations cement a picture in their own nature. A nature defined by others, only residing in limited space, alone, will only lead to a future so far. 

 

Bending into the spurs of moments, we are all responsible for bearing the call, wherever, whenever, we feel it. And as much as we have sidestepped the screams of the voiceless, others have heard our silence. Others have reveled in our limited capacity. But, as the truth is defined by each individual responding to it, so is the call. Responding to a call of justice, equity, fairness, impartiality, the actions goes on and on, and yet the realization for laboring is small, even though the potential laborers for each category are many. 

 

What role do we play, in the context of defining the best truth, certainly, there is not only one truth, but there is an obvious amount of understanding, around the idea, that truth is not defined by one, only. 

 

As courteous and magnanimous as we would like to proceed forward, a fight is still a fight. And while the said fight may begin in one context and transform into another, change is hard, resolve to see a change to the end is, even so, harder. Smashing systems put into place, implicitly, explicitly, or in between, to dominate, to tamp down on the potential of others, requires a response. 

 

As much as we pretend like we just get right back up and go right back out, to try again, our cheek is still bruised. We leave little emphasis on the glaring fact that the cheek turned is only the first motion of reconciliation. 

 

One cannot predict every outcome, but we can predict the level of energy used to get to those desires. Define your clarion call. And know the hardest part of holding something in the palm of your hand is waiting for it to lift off, and after it does there is no glance back to you, no invitation to receive some sort of extended steadfastness, only a sobering understanding that you gave everything you could to see it go. 

 

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